I have recently had some thoughts weighing deeply on my mind. Have you ever had a sort of a vision? I mean - just something that you picture in your head? I think it is somewhat like a metaphor or a physical example of things that I can relate to.
I was thinking of experiencing a really severe storm. You know the kind where you are outside and walking somewhere and all of a sudden it begins to POUR, I mean really dump on you. Then the winds pick up. Then it gets so chilly that it turns to hail. Pelting you. Then a gust nearly blows you over. You are so cold you can't feel your face. Every breath you take in freezes your snot instantly inside your nose. All you can do is try to get to SHELTER as soon as possible...to get out of the STORM.
I finally get to the car and open the door and jump in and shut the door. Instant relief. Instant comfort. Instant SHELTER from that storm. Aaaah.
Do you remember that feeling? No wind on your face? You can start to breath normally and defrost a little? It is quiet and calm? Well, the crazy thing is that even though you are feeling that way, feeling all sheltered and protected and peaceful, the STORM is still raging on outside of your little car.
So you start it up and begin the journey home. HOME! Home...where the family is. Where there is food and a warm shower and dry clothes. Where you can cuddle up with your loved ones, enjoy a drink of hot cocoa and relax. Where there is WiFi!
Here is where my little metaphor or visual that I kept seeing comes in.
To me, when a person is baptized and receives the gift of the Holy Ghost, they are essentially getting into the car. They have a shelter from the storms of life. Although it is still raging out there, they have the Holy Ghost to protect and warm them.
And when you finally get into your home, it is like going to the temple and making sacred covenants with the Lord. Covenants that give you a sense of eternal belonging and peace, that carry you through the worst of storms possible. Being part of an eternal family gives you a sense of shelter like no other physical thing I can describe or even think of.
This idea and these images that have been floating around in my mind and heart lately were confirmed the other day when I was attending the baptism of my son's friend. His sweet mother got up to bear her testimony and as this was their youngest child who just received the Holy Ghost, she looked over at her husband and said, "We've made it!" with a smile of relief and happiness. I could instantly relate to what it must feel like to have all of your children safely in the path that leads to God. Then I thought of how I long to feel that same thing one day. Then I thought of what a sense of relief and gratitude must accompany the feelings of joy when all of your children choose to make eternal covenants in the temple. It is not like a sense of pride or wanting to wear a 'badge of honor' or anything, but more of a sense of safety and peace knowing that your children have the protection and shelter available and ready for them if they only chose to obey.
Of course there are still huge snowflakes and howling winds that will hit our cars and the windowpanes of our homes, but we have SHELTER from them. Having the Holy Ghost doesn't make our drive home rain-free. Making covenants with God doesn't make our marriages and families wind-free and full of sunshine. But it does make it BEARABLE. It does make it DOABLE. It does make it POSSIBLE to get through not only all the little rain storms that will inevitably come, but also the most severe TORNADOS and HURRICANES that threaten to destroy us.
So - what then is the solution for an ESCAPE from the storms of mortality? Only sweet death will bring that to our souls...but until that day, I feel utterly grateful to have the shelters provided to me that I have in place. I physically feel a sense of relief from the storms of life every time that I walk in to the temple. Every time that I have all of my family surrounding me and we have scriptures and prayer together. Every time I tuck in and kiss my little ones good night in their warm beds. Every time I lay down next to my sweet, snoring husband and know that tomorrow will come with it's storms and chaos and I will still have him by my side as we face it together.
While Satan is having a hay-day playing with people's hearts and minds and destroying the very foundations of families throughout the world ---
While the hearts of men and women begin to wax cold and they increasingly hurt others as they seek for something to fill their empty souls---
While those from within our own safe cars and houses use their free-agency to open the door and walk away --
While at times I may forget the safety of the shelter I am in and in a rebellious moment chose to roll down the windows and get hit in the face with some hail --
Even so---
I am so happy and blessed to know that Jesus Christ is my ultimate shelter from ALL storms.
Every. Single. Kind.
"For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy."
Psalms 61:3
Sunday, July 6, 2014
Monday, May 12, 2014
Parental Control
I have had the topic of "parental control" on my mind a lot lately. I think this stems from a few main issues, one being that of public education and the ever pervasive changes in mentality that the schools are really the guardians of our children and that parents don't need to know everything, etc. And the other being in the public healthcare settings - where ideologies of the need for children to have the capability to make personal medical decisions regarding their health without the consent or even the knowledge of the parents.
I am not all out here to start a very controversial debate about the merits or follies of Common Core or the data mining that accompanies it. I am not here to debate about the blessings or the evils of free and private birth control for young teenagers. I merely would like to express my thoughts about how it feels to be a mother in a time when many organizations and many people in the world feel that parents need to stop vying for 'parental control' and let those people who are 'trained' or who are 'experts' just do their job, because they know what is best for our children.
Now, for the fear of offending or alienating certain parties, let me begin by saying that I fully understand that there are those children whose home lives or whose available parents are subpar at best and neglectful or abusive at worst. Those children truly do need the assistance of outside parties to help them succeed in life. I am grateful for the services provided for just such cases. However, I feel that as a whole, society is leaning way too far away from letting family's be in control of their own lives and respecting the parental rights for their children.
Case in point:
My children recently had some testing going on at school. Basically, they are piloting a new program of computer tests that haven't even been proven and they (teachers, parents) are not going to get results from it at all. They are essentially just being lab rats. Basically it seems like a waste of time, and is most definitely a loss of hours upon hours of instructional time in the classroom. So, I chose to exert my parental rights and "opted out" my children from these insane tests. So far I have not had to deal with an excessive amount of backlash (albeit I have had a bit) from people who for some reason feel that I am wrong to pull my kids out, or that I am 'going against the system' or that I am anti-pubic education'.
The crazy thing is that this system already doesn't allow for parents to have much, if any control over what they see in their kid's public record, or who else sees it for that matter. Now they are proposing a BAN against any parents being able to opt their kids out in the future. WHY? Because, guess what? I am not the only parent who chose to opt my children out of that testing. Not by a long shot. There were actually thousands and thousands of other parents across the nation who did the very thing I did.
This great article is written by a current TEACHER and PARENT here in Idaho who supported Common Core:
http://www.idahoreporter.com/2014/one-possible-solution-sbac-testing-controversy-parents-given-right-decline-child-tested/
It feels like now they are doing all they can and as swiftly as they can to get parents 'out of the way'. The ideas and the thinking that parents don't know what is best for their children's education or that they should not have a say in it at all is truly scary for me to imagine.
http://touch.latimes.com/#section/-1/article/p2p-79855614/
The second area that I have seen an issue with this, as I alluded to before, is in the arena of Public Health. While we all know that birth control and abortions are on the rise - even a sharp rise - throughout the world, it seems that little is known about how parents are often not made aware of those very things happening in their child's life. I have recently seen with my own eyes and heard with my own ears as a young teenager was seeking help in case she was pregnant. The counsel was given to her to begin taking prenatal vitamins just in case. Then she was told that if her mother found out or asked about it, she should just tell her that she was taking them because she heard that they help with hair and nail growth. I am not kidding. Not only are we talking about concealing important aspects of a child's life and health from the parents, but now we are teaching them how to lie to the parents?!
If you don't believe me, here are some actual laws:
I hear and see things on a near daily basis that seem to confirm to me the fact that 'parents are overrated' or that children need to be raised by those who are outside of the home. I see indoctrination happening on a subtle and a not so subtle basis throughout all walks of life, from advertising to educational textbooks to music to publicly funded government programs. It made me start to think about it all.
Why is this happening? Have the last hundreds and hundreds of years of parents raising their children and calling the shots and knowing what was best for them just been a waste of time?
Has the answer always been found in letting society raise the child and in letting the young child chose for himself? Or is this taking us further and further away from where we need to be?
I started to think about the loss of parental control in general, and whether there are any applicable gospel analogies I could derive from it. I began to ponder about it. I concluded that there is a sense of Heavenly Father's influence in our lives being diminished. There is a sense of us trying more and more to be independent of God in our mortal lives and to try and let the world tell us how we should live -
To feel more and more like we are the ones that are truly in control.
What would happen if each of us, as children of our Heavenly Father were to turn over control of our lives to Him? What if we were to let our will be swallowed up in His? Would that make us weaker? Would that make us more vulnerable? Or would that make us stronger, albeit vulnerable at the same time... as we humble ourselves to His ways and choose to follow His eternal laws for us?
In conclusion: I am not looking for feedback, I am merely asking you to question these things in your own heart and mind as a parent:
Is there a loss of parental control in our society?
Are we as parents scared to speak up for what we feel is best for our own children, regardless of what the world tells us is best for them?
Is there a loss of Heavenly Parental Control?
Not because he isn't fighting for that. Not because He isn't wanting us to turn to Him and to listen to what he has to say and to seek His guidance.
Are the two correlated? Is there a type and a shadow in these things?
Who knows what is best for our children?
And who knows what is best for us?
It has been said that "Man plans. God laughs." While we all go through our own phases of trying to figure out what our role in life is, let's not lose sight of the fact that our lives are, in very fact, not 100% controlled by us, nor should they be.
For the record: I'm all for increased Parental Control - both mortal and Heavenly!
"Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone? Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent?If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?"
I am not all out here to start a very controversial debate about the merits or follies of Common Core or the data mining that accompanies it. I am not here to debate about the blessings or the evils of free and private birth control for young teenagers. I merely would like to express my thoughts about how it feels to be a mother in a time when many organizations and many people in the world feel that parents need to stop vying for 'parental control' and let those people who are 'trained' or who are 'experts' just do their job, because they know what is best for our children.
Now, for the fear of offending or alienating certain parties, let me begin by saying that I fully understand that there are those children whose home lives or whose available parents are subpar at best and neglectful or abusive at worst. Those children truly do need the assistance of outside parties to help them succeed in life. I am grateful for the services provided for just such cases. However, I feel that as a whole, society is leaning way too far away from letting family's be in control of their own lives and respecting the parental rights for their children.
Case in point:
My children recently had some testing going on at school. Basically, they are piloting a new program of computer tests that haven't even been proven and they (teachers, parents) are not going to get results from it at all. They are essentially just being lab rats. Basically it seems like a waste of time, and is most definitely a loss of hours upon hours of instructional time in the classroom. So, I chose to exert my parental rights and "opted out" my children from these insane tests. So far I have not had to deal with an excessive amount of backlash (albeit I have had a bit) from people who for some reason feel that I am wrong to pull my kids out, or that I am 'going against the system' or that I am anti-pubic education'.
The crazy thing is that this system already doesn't allow for parents to have much, if any control over what they see in their kid's public record, or who else sees it for that matter. Now they are proposing a BAN against any parents being able to opt their kids out in the future. WHY? Because, guess what? I am not the only parent who chose to opt my children out of that testing. Not by a long shot. There were actually thousands and thousands of other parents across the nation who did the very thing I did.
This great article is written by a current TEACHER and PARENT here in Idaho who supported Common Core:
http://www.idahoreporter.com/2014/one-possible-solution-sbac-testing-controversy-parents-given-right-decline-child-tested/
It feels like now they are doing all they can and as swiftly as they can to get parents 'out of the way'. The ideas and the thinking that parents don't know what is best for their children's education or that they should not have a say in it at all is truly scary for me to imagine.
http://touch.latimes.com/#section/-1/article/p2p-79855614/
The second area that I have seen an issue with this, as I alluded to before, is in the arena of Public Health. While we all know that birth control and abortions are on the rise - even a sharp rise - throughout the world, it seems that little is known about how parents are often not made aware of those very things happening in their child's life. I have recently seen with my own eyes and heard with my own ears as a young teenager was seeking help in case she was pregnant. The counsel was given to her to begin taking prenatal vitamins just in case. Then she was told that if her mother found out or asked about it, she should just tell her that she was taking them because she heard that they help with hair and nail growth. I am not kidding. Not only are we talking about concealing important aspects of a child's life and health from the parents, but now we are teaching them how to lie to the parents?!
If you don't believe me, here are some actual laws:
Cal. Health & Safety Code Sec 123450 states that, "An unemancipated minor may obtain an abortion without the consent of a parent or guardian"
Cal. Educ. Code Section 46010.1, states that, "The governing board of each school district shall, each academic year, notify pupils in grades 7 to 12, and the parents or guardians of all pupils enrolled in the district, that school authorities may excuse any pupil from school for the purpose of obtaining confidential medical services without the consent of the pupil's parent or guardian."
66 Ops.Atty.Gen. 244 (7-28-83) states that, "Public school officials have the authority to excuse a pupil from regularly scheduled classes to obtain medical services for which they may legally consent, including abortion, without notification to a parent of guardian."
I hear and see things on a near daily basis that seem to confirm to me the fact that 'parents are overrated' or that children need to be raised by those who are outside of the home. I see indoctrination happening on a subtle and a not so subtle basis throughout all walks of life, from advertising to educational textbooks to music to publicly funded government programs. It made me start to think about it all.
Why is this happening? Have the last hundreds and hundreds of years of parents raising their children and calling the shots and knowing what was best for them just been a waste of time?
Has the answer always been found in letting society raise the child and in letting the young child chose for himself? Or is this taking us further and further away from where we need to be?
I started to think about the loss of parental control in general, and whether there are any applicable gospel analogies I could derive from it. I began to ponder about it. I concluded that there is a sense of Heavenly Father's influence in our lives being diminished. There is a sense of us trying more and more to be independent of God in our mortal lives and to try and let the world tell us how we should live -
To feel more and more like we are the ones that are truly in control.
What would happen if each of us, as children of our Heavenly Father were to turn over control of our lives to Him? What if we were to let our will be swallowed up in His? Would that make us weaker? Would that make us more vulnerable? Or would that make us stronger, albeit vulnerable at the same time... as we humble ourselves to His ways and choose to follow His eternal laws for us?
In conclusion: I am not looking for feedback, I am merely asking you to question these things in your own heart and mind as a parent:
Is there a loss of parental control in our society?
Are we as parents scared to speak up for what we feel is best for our own children, regardless of what the world tells us is best for them?
Is there a loss of Heavenly Parental Control?
Not because he isn't fighting for that. Not because He isn't wanting us to turn to Him and to listen to what he has to say and to seek His guidance.
Are the two correlated? Is there a type and a shadow in these things?
Who knows what is best for our children?
And who knows what is best for us?
It has been said that "Man plans. God laughs." While we all go through our own phases of trying to figure out what our role in life is, let's not lose sight of the fact that our lives are, in very fact, not 100% controlled by us, nor should they be.
For the record: I'm all for increased Parental Control - both mortal and Heavenly!
"Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone? Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent?If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?"
Monday, April 7, 2014
A Worldwide Family Reunion
This past weekend we went on a family trip to my In-Laws home.
It was wonderful. We celebrated my beautiful mother-in-laws' birthday, took the kids to the Wave Pool, went skeet shooting, made a solar oven, got dental work done, ate a lot and watched a ton of TV.
While the three to four movies that were viewed each day by my children were entertaining, by far the best thing that we watched on TV was.....
the General Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
You know how you feel just anticipating a family reunion - let alone being AT the reunion?
Isn't it the best!
It is indescribable to me.
The love, the sense of family and of belonging that I feel.
THAT is what General Conference is like for me.
It is like a worldwide family reunion of all of my brothers and sisters. When I watch the talks given at Conference, it feels like a giant Skype session with my older brothers and sisters who I admire and look up to and love. And then being able to talk with all my cousins (15 million plus) about the cool messages as we stay up till 1 am eating peanut M&M's and talking and laughing...
Well, something like that.
Anyway - I really just get giddy with excitement to hear the wonderful messages and to feel a part of the wonderful organization that is my church -
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.
Now - I am not one to make super cutesy crafts or meme's or anything - but here are some of the key messages that I took away from the meetings. One star point for each talk given.
*We must forsake transgression and any HINT of advocacy for it in others.
*Focusing on serving our brothers and sisters...prepares us to LOVE what the Lord LOVES!
*The only filter that ALWAYS works is your personal internal filter.
*Reading the Book of Mormon will give us protection from the whirlwinds of life.
*We need to serve God with JOY and dedication.
*Whenever we choose to make or keep a covenant with God, we leave a heritage of hope for our decedents.
*I need to be securely TIED to GOD and to nothing else.
*People can understand God's love better if they first feel unconditionally loved by us.
*It is IMPOSSIBLE for others to modify God's commandments.
*If we chose to leave the path at all, we will one day feel the bitterness of having set at naught the teachings of God.
*I need to use words that are both SOFT in spirit and FIRM in information.
*Our Family History Centers are now in our homes!
*Forget about our RIGHTS and focus on our RESPONSIBILITIES.
*If anyone ever says "That's just the way I am", they give up their ability to change.
*The Lord provides technology to accomplish HIS purposes, to hasten HIS work.
*3 things that make us "sleepy" in the restoration of the Kingdom of God: selfishness, addictions, and busyness.
*Help people CHOOSE to qualify for eternal life.
*Just be the same person in the dark that you are in the light.
*Gratitude is a catalyst to all Christlike virtues.
*As we follow UP the Lord will not let us DOWN.
*God accomplishes his miracles ONE prayer, ONE person at a time.
*Let us run with patience the race that is set before us.
*Is the LOAD I am carrying producing Spiritual traction to get me unstuck and back on path to God?
*Our burdens are eased not by the Lord removing the challenges, but by the Lord strengthening US.
*Blame keeps wounds open, only forgiveness heals.
*The ultimate end of ALL activity in the Church is that a man and his wife and their children can be happy at HOME.
*The more connected we feel to our righteous forefathers, the more likely we are to make wise and righteous choices.
*To succeed in life, we must teach our spirits and our bodies to work together.
*If we want to know the truth of all things, we need to ASK GOD ourselves.
*I need to put more quality time and effort to strengthen family relationships.
*We need to be willing to DO God's will when we find it.
*Repentance...is both POSSIBLE and URGENT!
*Realize how CLOSE He is willing to come; How FAR He is willing to go to help us; and how MUCH he loves us!
Overarching messages:
We will NEVER regret being a little too kind.
and...
Courage, not compromise brings the smile of God's approval.
If you are interested in listening for yourself to the awesome messages of our recent Family Reunion that is General Conference - click on this link here.
See you at the next one in October!
(I'll bring the M&Ms!)
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| (Emerson enjoying the water fountain at the Wave pool.) |
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| (Grandpa letting the numbing magic work on Lane before pulling three teeth!) |
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| (Checking out the solar oven!) |
It was wonderful. We celebrated my beautiful mother-in-laws' birthday, took the kids to the Wave Pool, went skeet shooting, made a solar oven, got dental work done, ate a lot and watched a ton of TV.
While the three to four movies that were viewed each day by my children were entertaining, by far the best thing that we watched on TV was.....
the General Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
You know how you feel just anticipating a family reunion - let alone being AT the reunion?
Isn't it the best!
It is indescribable to me.
The love, the sense of family and of belonging that I feel.
THAT is what General Conference is like for me.
It is like a worldwide family reunion of all of my brothers and sisters. When I watch the talks given at Conference, it feels like a giant Skype session with my older brothers and sisters who I admire and look up to and love. And then being able to talk with all my cousins (15 million plus) about the cool messages as we stay up till 1 am eating peanut M&M's and talking and laughing...
Well, something like that.
Anyway - I really just get giddy with excitement to hear the wonderful messages and to feel a part of the wonderful organization that is my church -
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.
Now - I am not one to make super cutesy crafts or meme's or anything - but here are some of the key messages that I took away from the meetings. One star point for each talk given.
*We must forsake transgression and any HINT of advocacy for it in others.
*Focusing on serving our brothers and sisters...prepares us to LOVE what the Lord LOVES!
*The only filter that ALWAYS works is your personal internal filter.
*Reading the Book of Mormon will give us protection from the whirlwinds of life.
*We need to serve God with JOY and dedication.
*Whenever we choose to make or keep a covenant with God, we leave a heritage of hope for our decedents.
*I need to be securely TIED to GOD and to nothing else.
*People can understand God's love better if they first feel unconditionally loved by us.
*It is IMPOSSIBLE for others to modify God's commandments.
*If we chose to leave the path at all, we will one day feel the bitterness of having set at naught the teachings of God.
*I need to use words that are both SOFT in spirit and FIRM in information.
*Our Family History Centers are now in our homes!
*Forget about our RIGHTS and focus on our RESPONSIBILITIES.
*If anyone ever says "That's just the way I am", they give up their ability to change.
*The Lord provides technology to accomplish HIS purposes, to hasten HIS work.
*3 things that make us "sleepy" in the restoration of the Kingdom of God: selfishness, addictions, and busyness.
*Help people CHOOSE to qualify for eternal life.
*Just be the same person in the dark that you are in the light.
*Gratitude is a catalyst to all Christlike virtues.
*As we follow UP the Lord will not let us DOWN.
*God accomplishes his miracles ONE prayer, ONE person at a time.
*Let us run with patience the race that is set before us.
*Is the LOAD I am carrying producing Spiritual traction to get me unstuck and back on path to God?
*Our burdens are eased not by the Lord removing the challenges, but by the Lord strengthening US.
*Blame keeps wounds open, only forgiveness heals.
*The ultimate end of ALL activity in the Church is that a man and his wife and their children can be happy at HOME.
*The more connected we feel to our righteous forefathers, the more likely we are to make wise and righteous choices.
*To succeed in life, we must teach our spirits and our bodies to work together.
*If we want to know the truth of all things, we need to ASK GOD ourselves.
*I need to put more quality time and effort to strengthen family relationships.
*We need to be willing to DO God's will when we find it.
*Repentance...is both POSSIBLE and URGENT!
*Realize how CLOSE He is willing to come; How FAR He is willing to go to help us; and how MUCH he loves us!
Overarching messages:
We will NEVER regret being a little too kind.
and...
Courage, not compromise brings the smile of God's approval.
If you are interested in listening for yourself to the awesome messages of our recent Family Reunion that is General Conference - click on this link here.
See you at the next one in October!
(I'll bring the M&Ms!)
Sunday, March 30, 2014
An equation for peace!
In my scripture studies this morning I was struck with a thought that I hadn't really pondered sufficiently before. I was reading in the book of Enos in the Book of Mormon about what he was feeling and going through after he 'wrestled with God' and repented of his sins.
* In order to explain my rambling thoughts I better tell you that I will have the scriptures quoted in italics and my own thoughts in the parenthesis. *
And I soon go to the place of my rest, which is with my Redeemer; for I know that in him I shall rest. And I rejoice in the day when my mortal shall put on immortality, and shall stand before him; then shall I see his face with pleasure, and he will say unto me: Come unto me, ye blessed, there is a place prepared for you in the mansions of my Father. Amen.
* In order to explain my rambling thoughts I better tell you that I will have the scriptures quoted in italics and my own thoughts in the parenthesis. *
"And I will tell you of the wrestle which I had before God,
before I received a remission of my sins.
(So here I learn that in order for me to actually be forgiven of my own sins, I need to wrestle with God. Since I don't believe that to be literal, and because I would never feel comfortable praying in a singlet, I looked it up in the Dictionary and found a more appropriate definition: "to contend, as in a struggle for mastery; grapple: to wrestle with one's conscience." What does that struggle for mastery look like? Is it me struggling to be the master of my own thoughts and actions? Is it me surrendering to Christ as my master?)
Behold...the words which I had often heard my father speak
concerning eternal life, and the joy of the saints, sunk deep
into my heart.
before I received a remission of my sins.
(So here I learn that in order for me to actually be forgiven of my own sins, I need to wrestle with God. Since I don't believe that to be literal, and because I would never feel comfortable praying in a singlet, I looked it up in the Dictionary and found a more appropriate definition: "to contend, as in a struggle for mastery; grapple: to wrestle with one's conscience." What does that struggle for mastery look like? Is it me struggling to be the master of my own thoughts and actions? Is it me surrendering to Christ as my master?)
Behold...the words which I had often heard my father speak
concerning eternal life, and the joy of the saints, sunk deep
into my heart.
(This gives me hope that one day, my children will remember the things that I am telling them about God their Father and about eternal life and about the path they need to walk on daily.)
And my soul hungered; and I kneeled down before my
Maker, and I cried unto him in mighty prayer and
supplication for mine own soul; and all the day long did I
cry unto him; yea, and when the night came I did still raise
my voice high that it reached the heavens.
(I have spent many a day and many a night crying unto my Maker. Usually at times when I am faced with unpleasant occurrences or trials. It strikes me that this man was just out to hunt and pondering things, I hope to get to the point where I am able to spend more time thinking of the Savior and of eternity throughout my every day, and not just in times of trial, fear, or loneliness.)
And my soul hungered; and I kneeled down before my
Maker, and I cried unto him in mighty prayer and
supplication for mine own soul; and all the day long did I
cry unto him; yea, and when the night came I did still raise
my voice high that it reached the heavens.
(I have spent many a day and many a night crying unto my Maker. Usually at times when I am faced with unpleasant occurrences or trials. It strikes me that this man was just out to hunt and pondering things, I hope to get to the point where I am able to spend more time thinking of the Savior and of eternity throughout my every day, and not just in times of trial, fear, or loneliness.)
And there came a voice unto me, saying: Enos, thy sins are
forgiven thee, and thou shalt be blessed.
And I, Enos, knew that God could not lie; wherefore, my
guilt was swept away.
(The simplicity of this formula is so plain and beautiful to me. It was a one-liner. He just KNEW that since God couldn't lie, and God told him that his sins were forgiven, then it was instant - his guilt was swept away. I love how it didn't slowly dissipate into the air a tiny bit at a time or happen over weeks or months. It was just SWEPT away. Like that. Done. I have had to remind myself of this time and time again. I have felt forgiven of things, and then later, I give in to the whisperings of Satan and start to doubt myself or remember my own sins, and this reminds me that I need to simply TRUST God when he says I am forgiven. Because he CANNOT lie. Period.)
forgiven thee, and thou shalt be blessed.
And I, Enos, knew that God could not lie; wherefore, my
guilt was swept away.
(The simplicity of this formula is so plain and beautiful to me. It was a one-liner. He just KNEW that since God couldn't lie, and God told him that his sins were forgiven, then it was instant - his guilt was swept away. I love how it didn't slowly dissipate into the air a tiny bit at a time or happen over weeks or months. It was just SWEPT away. Like that. Done. I have had to remind myself of this time and time again. I have felt forgiven of things, and then later, I give in to the whisperings of Satan and start to doubt myself or remember my own sins, and this reminds me that I need to simply TRUST God when he says I am forgiven. Because he CANNOT lie. Period.)
And I said: Lord, how is it done?
And he said unto me: Because of thy faith in Christ, whom
thou hast never before heard nor seen.
(The part that always stands out to me about this verse is the word BEFORE. It makes me think that at this time he was actually able to see the Lord and be with him, face to face. It makes me think that he had so much faith that nothing was withheld from him. If he was only hearing a voice in his head, then wouldn't it say "whom thou hast never heard nor seen" instead of "whom thou hast never BEFORE heard nor seen? I don't know. I am not proclaiming any sort of doctrine or idea here other than what I feel when I read it.)
Wherefore, go to, thy faith hath made thee whole.
(The thing that I love about God and Christ proclaiming this is that I picture me, and all human beings as having some sort of holes in us. And when our faith can make us whole, it makes me think that Christ, and only Christ has actually filed up our HOLES and made us WHOLE again.)thou hast never before heard nor seen.
(The part that always stands out to me about this verse is the word BEFORE. It makes me think that at this time he was actually able to see the Lord and be with him, face to face. It makes me think that he had so much faith that nothing was withheld from him. If he was only hearing a voice in his head, then wouldn't it say "whom thou hast never heard nor seen" instead of "whom thou hast never BEFORE heard nor seen? I don't know. I am not proclaiming any sort of doctrine or idea here other than what I feel when I read it.)
Wherefore, go to, thy faith hath made thee whole.
And after I, Enos, had heard these words, my faith began
to be unshaken in the Lord; and I prayed unto him with
many long strugglings for my brethren.
(I think it is so
amazing to watch that as soon as a person is made WHOLE or their faith is solid
or unshaken, then they will instantly turn outward. They will look outward to
serve others. Have you seen that happen? Have you seen someone with UNSHAKEN
faith? I have seen this happen. I have seen it in the actions of new converts
who want to instantly share the gospel with others after they have been so
recently saved. I have seen it in the lives of new mothers who have knocked on
the very door of death themselves, only then to turn and give their all and be
willing to sacrifice their own goals and aspirations in service to their brand
new babies. I have seen it in the testimony of the prophets as they plead
with every member of the Church with all their energy.)
And I had faith, and I did cry unto God that he would
preserve the records; and he covenanted with me that he
would bring them forth unto the Lamanites in his own due
time.
(Isn't it interesting that the first thing that Enos asked for when the Lord told him he could ask for anything because of his faith, was for God to preserve the records? Even though we are blessed with the technology nowadays to have endless electronic copies of all of the scriptures and words of the prophets at our fingertips, this makes me think of my own personal 'records'. In my mind that would equal my scrapbooks and journals. Sometimes I think to myself - what if there were a fire or a major flood or catastrophe, what would be the physical belongings that I would truly mourn the loss of? It would be the scrapbooks with years and years of photos of my babies growing up in our home. The handwritten letters from my grandparents who are all gone. The pictures of the best day of my life, the day I married Greg in the Salt Lake Temple. The journals that I wrote in every single day of my 18 month mission. The letters of love and testimony that Greg and I wrote to each other. THOSE are the records that I would miss. Why would I miss those things? Because they are a testament to my children and future grandchildren of what is important to me, of what really matters, of what I want for them.)
And I, Enos, knew it would be according to the covenant
which he had made; wherefore
which he had made; wherefore
my soul did rest.
(This is the grand "Aha" moment that I had. While reading this, I was struck with a constant thought in my life, one that I know many others have felt as well. It goes something like this:
"Why can't Jesus just come already?"
or "Oh, I can't wait for Jesus to come."
Why do I, and so many other people who love the Lord, long for that moment? I know that for me, it is because I grow weary of the evils of the day. I grow tired of the plaguing sins of our times that infiltrate my heart and my home and the hearts and homes of those I love. Understanding the revelations of what is yet to come, I fear for the future of my children. I often dream of the day when Christ returns as one where I will be able to just relax and have all fear and all strife and all wars and bloodshed and anger and hatred and disease be magically gone. Where I will simply be able to emotionally and spiritually and physically REST.
But this verse just told me otherwise.
It is the equation of peace that I have been needing to be reminded of.
It tells me that I don't have to wait for Jesus to come.
It tells me that my very SOUL can have true REST in this life.
Today.
Right now.
How?
By simply keeping the covenants that I have made with the Lord.
So, here is the equation: Make and Keep Covenants = Soul can REST.
Even amidst the hectic crazy busy life of a mother with so many young children, when I am feeling overwhelmed and underloved. When things get to be over-the-top or I am feeling under-the-weather. When life feels overly-heavy and I am under-nourished. When I am overly-exhausted and under-slept. I can still have REST FOR MY SOUL. I can feel it when I pause to re-examine what I am doing to keep my end of the bargain - to keep my covenants.
I can strive to be better at my baptismal covenant of 'bearing one another's burdens' as I take the time to visit my sick friend, listen to my heartbroken teenager, and pray for the anguish of my frustrated toddlers.
I can strive to be better at my temple covenants as I fulfill my Church calling, go to the temple frequently, and serve my husband with pure unselfish motives.
And as I do those small acts each day, they are the tokens that I am placing before the Lord to show him that I am striving - that I am trying - that I am longing to be a COVENANT KEEPER.
And in doing that, I can have REST to my SOUL each and every day!)
Enos finishes with the beautiful and more eternal 'promise of rest' that we usually think of:
I love Enos. I love what I have learned from his example to me. I know that I can also be blessed with PEACE in my heart and REST in my soul. Not only after death, but in life as well. I am unshakeable in this knowledge: That this is the JOY that lies inside of us as we keep our covenants.
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